My Life is the Lab

I’ve spent so much time these last few years in soul exploration. Deep diving in and a constant refusal to live shallow.

On my bike the other day I was riding as fast and as hard as I could. I was letting all of my feelings come forth from my legs. Feeling the push and pull of the concrete and my pedals, and of my life. As these words filled my ears and my heart I slowed and pulled to the side of the road.

See life's a beautiful struggle, I record it
Hope it helps you maneuvering through yours and
That's why we stay in the lab at night
~ Macklemore

I began to think about what my life is now, it’s an exploration, it’s an experiment. I am holding things up and peering into them. I am taking a microscope into the corners of my heart and my deepest desires. I am the scientist. My life is the lab.

It seemed to make the day, those thrown words and the dirty looks less intrusive and I began to long to take notes. So I did. So I am.

I’m putting on my white coat and setting out my petri dishes. I’m pulling out the specimens that have been in the jars on the shelf and letting it get really messy in here. Somedays will require gloves and goggles, others will need field trips and magic potions.

I’m going to look at it all. I’m going to dissect my thoughts and all that I “think” I know to be true. I’m going to write it all down along the way... and then, I’m going to let you see inside.